Maggie was frozen in a state of passivity, staying in bed all day, and avoiding work deadlines. If you're self-employed, such a pattern is going to cause problems sooner or later, and she was aware of that. On the surface, the issue was her passivity and a driving voice that told Maggie to go to work. On a level deeper, self-doubts showed up, such as a belief that "I can't trust myself." I pointed out that this sentence contained a strong part, “I” that had to support a vulnerable part “myself”, and I asked her to explore that vulnerable part. I didn't want to focus on the strong part, because this part would become redundant if the energy bound up in the vulnerable part was reconnected to Essence.
Maggie was invited to access the vulnerable part and with what age it was associated. At first, she went blank. Then there was a connection to the age of seven and the word 'exhausting' came to mind. She went one step further back in time and saw an image of herself sitting on the floor in her room as a two-year old, extremely lonely, in the presence of a male.
She did not know who he was or what was going on. She said the sentences for “the presence of the man behind me” and as a result she could access more layers of the memory. She felt a threat now. I counted to three and suggested that at three there would be additional information available, about the nature of the threat. This worked.
At the count of three, Maggie realised with a shock that it was her father who was the threat. He pressed her against him, and I let her say the Logosynthesis sentences for ‘the frozen perception of his body’.
After the first sentence, she felt a strong tension in her jaw, after the second she got cold, and after the third, she was extremely shaken. She had been aware of the abuse, but she had never known before that it had been her father, and now she knew - for sure. The memory deeply buried had finally surfaced. Maggie said the sentences for ‘the father I had wished for and never had' and an immense grief welled up in her. Then she said matter-of-factly: "This is not simple, but now it's clear."
After the first sentence, she felt a strong tension in her jaw, after the second she got cold, and after the third, she was extremely shaken. She had been aware of the abuse, but she had never known before that it had been her father, and now she knew - for sure. The memory deeply buried had finally surfaced. Maggie said the sentences for ‘the father I had wished for and never had' and an immense grief welled up in her. Then she said matter-of-factly: "This is not simple, but now it's clear."
In the next steps she resolved with the sentences different aspects of the sexual abuse that had followed. Each time I counted to three to reveal and activate the next frame of the traumatic memory, which was then resolved using the sentences.
This had been the first of a series of boundary transgressions, and it was amazing how fast it could be released. When I guided her back to the here-and-now, asking her to imagine a morning in bed, she saw herself waking up and dressing to go out. In her imagination, there was not a trace of the recent passivity.