Mary is a 34-year old marketing professional. At the age of 5 she was in a car accident; hit by a drunk driver in a truck. For days, even weeks, her parents didn’t know if she would survive, and they were frozen in powerless rage directed at the man who had caused their suffering. Since then, Mary had never really returned to her body. She underwent a very intense near-death experience, in which she was deeply connected with what we would call Essence, and whenever she got into conflicts with people she dissociated. She felt like she didn’t really live in her body and that her life didn’t really have meaning.

In a first session we had a long conversation about a lack of harmony between body, mind and spirit, and she felt relieved, really understood. Today I had a second session with her, and she told me that the first session had been spot on: She was not fully present, and she related this to the car accident at 5, which she referred to as “When I died.“. She also said “I shouldn’t have lived.“ She described how she had been standing in heaven and looked from above down at the site of the accident. When she came back to life, she didn’t trust people anymore: “It’s much more comfortable watching my life from above.” She even thought that people are generally bad.

She reported that she had trusted people before the accident, so I decided to look for a perception that had let her to decide not to trust people. However, the memory of the accident was deeply buried, there were only fragments. One fragment was a squashed feeling in her right shoulder, which she experienced clearly as a memory, not as a reaction to a memory. After a round of the Logosynthesis sentences, she stretched her body: The squashed feeling had gone away. She hadn’t consciously related it to the car accident: After that there had been a series of incidents in which she had hurt her shoulder.

After this round, Mary said: “I don’t trust people and I don’t want to be like that.“ On the outside everything looked OK, but internally it felt different. She also used the expression: “I don’t trust myself.“ I pointed out to her that she must have one part called ‘I’ that didn’t trust another part called ‘myself’. She reacted with surprise, and when she started looking for the ‘I’ part she was able to find it behind her on her right side, pushing heavily with a SUD score of 9.

After she said the Logosynthesis sentences for “the part behind my back”, she felt dramatically different: "Now that part is inside of me, really part of me. My whole life it’s been outside of my body, and I’ve been in a battle with myself.“ She felt a new strength in her solar plexus, and she looked radiant and beautiful. “This part has been in the way of my connection with Source, and now I can start to do what I’m here for in this world, to help people. I don’t like being bossed around."  
Now she realized that she had had an injury on the right and that her body was balanced now. She once again started describing how she had observed the crash site, the car, the train, the police, from the clouds, with deep compassion for the drunken driver. Her parents had a completely different attitude towards this person. They were full of anger and resentment towards him.

The emotions of the parents had led to an ambivalence for Mary, as it was very present and at the same time she didn’t share it at all. I gave her the sentences for “the parents’ representation of the drunken driver” and another second sentence for “all other people’s representation of the drunken driver.” This resulted in an even deeper relief. She told me how she had begged her mother to let go of her anger and resentment towards the man who caused the accident, and that had helped somewhat.

After these Logosynthesis sentences she showed me the biggest smile I’d seen from her until then. The validity of the statement “I don’t trust people“ had dropped to a 2. As I think there is nothing wrong with being careful, I decided to leave it there. Then she said: “I feel like my heart has opened even more.“ She felt her body, in her body. The split had gone. Later that day she wrote me: "I am sooooo happy. Thank you again, I feel incredible. Words cannot express my thanks. Best day ever!"